I have been unable to use my Bioness L300 Go system for the last two weeks due to the unexplained swelling and pain I had in my right leg. The doctor believed that it was a vein in my leg ruptured which caused the swelling and bruising. So, I took a break from using my devices, but now I am back to using them gradually. I am hopeful that overtime I will improve and graduate from having to use any assistive devices because it is believed that over time new nerve pathways are created. This means more communication from my legs to my brain. This will help improve my proprioception which will improve my balance and feeling in my legs.
I am walking on an incline. My walking continues to be jerky, but with lots of prayer, time, hard work, and going back to Pt for gait training my walking will improve. I am blessed to even be able to stand and walk. I will never take my legs for granted again.
If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. Luke 16:10 NLT
Everyone has experienced fear, but it is how we deal with it
that matters. We all can face our fears and overcome them, or we can let the
fear cripple us. Becoming disabled at the age of 50 was not what I planned for
and it led to so many questions and uncertainties. Thankfully fear kindles
courage and courage is what helps us overcome our fears. So, we must find the
source of our courage in order to confront our fear.
It is my belief that courage can come from our experiences,
from those around us who encourage us, but most of all from God. When I attempt
to face a fear on my own, I tend to become overwhelmed and anxious keeping me
stuck. But when I seek God’s help first, He lets me see that although my fear
may be bigger than me, it is not bigger than Him. When the physical therapist told me to stand
for the first time after my spinal cord injury, I was scared, and I did not
believe my legs could hold me up after all I couldn’t even feel them. I cried
out and asked God to help me through this. He answered by giving me family, friends,
therapists, and doctors which continually encouraged me letting me know that
they had faith in me and my ability. Their faith in me was greater than the
faith I had in myself and because of this it gave me the courage to get through
some of the scariest times.
Our fear regardless of how small or big can cripple us if we let it. It can keep us from reaching our full potential, but when we seek God – “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9). He guides us, showing us, He is there by helping us to keep moving forward despite our fear. He brings people into our lives to help us through. It is my belief that this is another way God lets us know that we are never alone and our fear maybe bigger than us, but it is not bigger than Him.