All we have to do is open our eyes and we can see all things He has created. If He created us and all things that surround us than how can we doubt that anything is impossible?
Have faith and hope because “Where there is faith, and there is hope, Miracles Transpire. ” No matter where we are or what circumstances we gave God is with us. All we have to do is ask Him. He loves us unconditionally and wants us to depend on Him.
Each morning I awake in pain facing the fact that I am disabled. Yet, I know that through every breath God is by my side. Even on the days I can barely get out of bed and requiring me to take extra medication just to move. He keeps me moving forward and helps me push through it all. Because of Him I am walking again instead of being in a wheelchair. Because of Him I am continuing to improve even almost 4 years out. They maybe baby steps but they are steps. Don’t give up hope because each day we are given is another day for a miracle to happen.
It is easy to lose hope and find all the things I still cannot do. Waking up every day in pain doesn’t help. Almost two years ago I had a very dear friend and pastor lay hands on me. He told me that my legs were already being healed and to believe. So, although it is easy to fall into the negativity trap I have continued to believe and have hope.
A few days ago, my husband and I went on a walk while staying at the beach and using my LifeGlider. I have really missed being able to do things like jumping, dancing, and running. I decided to try running. Now this is more like a super-fast walk, but I can say I am on my way. I still have a way to go, but God has brought me from no feeling from the waist down and the inability to walk to regaining some feeling and standing to walking and now almost running.
Although it is difficult to sometimes see the progress and healing, there are times when God allows us to see and feel it. Never give up hope. Have faith because answers our prayers on His time. I refuse to give up and will do my best to keep moving forward telling a better story.
Working to run again. It will happen with pratice and believing in what God has done.
Defeating the bridge! Three weeks ago when staying here I could not walk over the bridge without my husband helping me. With practice, lots of prayer, walking and exercise I have built strength and now I can get over the bridge on my own using my LifeGlider.
Having the ability to cook without worrying about falling has helped me feel more confident. Using my LifeGlider has given me the use of my hands while having better balance. I have always enjoyed cooking for my family, but when I lost proprioception and balance it was almost impossible to stand and cook using a regular walker because I had to constantly had look a my legs/feet so that my brain could register where my legs were at all times otherwise any slight weight shift would send me falling. So blessed to have found a great device that allows me to stand up straight, walk more correctly all the while being safe.
Your promise revives me; it comforts me in all my troubles.
Psalm 119:50 (NLT)
Some days are great and it easy to feel the energy and build on it. Those day are when we do things like get outside and do a little gardening or step up our workouts. Yet on the days when our body hurts and feels sluggish it becomes difficult to see the positives. But God’s promise to walk with us, to love us and to get us through brings life and hope back to us even when our pain is at an 7+ and our legs feel like they have weights on them as we walk through mud. Regardless of what is going on His promise remains unchanging.
Lately, I have had some tough days where all I can do is take my meds and rest. I have always been an active person who would much rather be outside doing something rather than to be a couch/bed potato. But I have had to learn that with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation that it is okay to take time to let my body rest and heal. So, on those day I read, draw or binge watch something on Netflix or Hulu. Often it is a combination of all those things. All the while remembering that God is with me and not let the negative thoughts creep in.
Once the negative thoughts start running through it makes it much harder to remain hopeful. Then the pain becomes overwhelming and causes many of us to fall into the “what if” stage. For example, what if there is a major earthquake, how am I going to get out, or what if this time I do not improve, and my symptoms just keep getting worse? Silly thoughts that the enemy loves to put into our head. Of course, we have a choice, we can keep going down this negative and dark path or we can STOP, say a prayer and ask God to help us control our thoughts and then begin thinking about all the good things that tomorrow will bring. Now, there are times when tomorrow repeats the same pain, but if we keep looking forward and stay hopeful most of the time the pain gets better and we are off to our next project or adventure.
If we stay hopeful, we will keep moving forward even if we take little steps. In time we will look back and realize how far we have really come. God’s promise gives us comfort in those times of difficulty and gives us hope to hold on and let Him carry us through. Stay strong and allow the good thoughts power you instead of letting the bad ones drain you. God will never break His promise. He will always comfort us and bring us through.