Faith is not the power of positive thinking; It is Believing in God and trusting that His will is always best even when you cannot understand why. Sheri Howeton
Positive thinking is not a bad habit to get into as it can keep your mind set in the right frame of mind, but that alone will not bring your goals to fruition. Having faith on the other hand, can and will keep you moving until you reach your goals and even take you beyond them. Without faith you cannot have hope and without hope we get stuck and cannot move forward. Living with any type of chronic illness can drag you down, cause you to lose hope, leaving us feeling like it will never get better. But as you will see from the short videos below, having hope, faith and with some work you can reach your goals and even more..
This was my core/leg flutter in Jan. 2021.
This was my core/leg flutter in March 2021. My overall balance has improved even still. Over the past 4 years I have gone from barely being able to stand and walk. Getting down on the ground was impossible in the beginning. Now it is much easier to get down on the ground and back up again.
This was the first time I attempted a plank in early Jan. 2021
This was on March 22, 2021. The improvement is amazing. With loss of proprioception this should not even be possible. Although, over the last 4 years I have regained some ability to tell where my limbs are in space as new neuropathways have been created.
I have improved on so many levels over the last 4 years. I have prayed, hoped, and pushed myself to keep getting better. It has not always been easy. I have had many bouts where pain has prevented me from being able to do much of anything. It is difficult to be positive all the time and yes, I succumb to doubt and anxiety. But as soon as I begin to pray my hope soon returns and I come to my senses remembering the set back is only temporary. No matter what obstacle we must overcome it is always possible with God by our side.
Thank you for taking the time to read my blog, God bless!
Your promise revives me; it comforts me in all my troubles.
Psalm 119:50 (NLT)
Some days are great and it easy to feel the energy and build on it. Those day are when we do things like get outside and do a little gardening or step up our workouts. Yet on the days when our body hurts and feels sluggish it becomes difficult to see the positives. But God’s promise to walk with us, to love us and to get us through brings life and hope back to us even when our pain is at an 7+ and our legs feel like they have weights on them as we walk through mud. Regardless of what is going on His promise remains unchanging.
Lately, I have had some tough days where all I can do is take my meds and rest. I have always been an active person who would much rather be outside doing something rather than to be a couch/bed potato. But I have had to learn that with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation that it is okay to take time to let my body rest and heal. So, on those day I read, draw or binge watch something on Netflix or Hulu. Often it is a combination of all those things. All the while remembering that God is with me and not let the negative thoughts creep in.
Once the negative thoughts start running through it makes it much harder to remain hopeful. Then the pain becomes overwhelming and causes many of us to fall into the “what if” stage. For example, what if there is a major earthquake, how am I going to get out, or what if this time I do not improve, and my symptoms just keep getting worse? Silly thoughts that the enemy loves to put into our head. Of course, we have a choice, we can keep going down this negative and dark path or we can STOP, say a prayer and ask God to help us control our thoughts and then begin thinking about all the good things that tomorrow will bring. Now, there are times when tomorrow repeats the same pain, but if we keep looking forward and stay hopeful most of the time the pain gets better and we are off to our next project or adventure.
If we stay hopeful, we will keep moving forward even if we take little steps. In time we will look back and realize how far we have really come. God’s promise gives us comfort in those times of difficulty and gives us hope to hold on and let Him carry us through. Stay strong and allow the good thoughts power you instead of letting the bad ones drain you. God will never break His promise. He will always comfort us and bring us through.
Along with my SCI I also have to be aware that some of my symptoms may be occurring because of Chiari. For me, two of the most common symptoms I deal with is Spinal headaches and vision changes. I always have to be aware that if my symptoms stay at a heightened level that decompression surgery may be necessary.