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Our pain is real

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Every day can bring something different. Sometimes days start with low pain only to have it increase throughout the day. Living with chronic pain is draining not only for the body but for our mind.

Because you never know when pain is going to go from 3 to 7+ you worry about where you are going or who is going to be around. Are you going to be in public? Are you close to home? Is the a place where you can attempt to get some relief?

When living with chronic pain there are so many things to consider. Yes, medications do help some, but they never relieve the pain fully leaving us to find ways to cope.

Yoga and other forms of exercise can be beneficial. Learning to breathe and stretch can help during spasms allowing some relief. Everyone is different and we must all find what works for us.

Our struggle and pain is real even if we don’t look ill. Most people living with chronic pain do there best not to show it and to stay positive. But when we have high pain days and can not do much don’t call us lazy or think we are faking it . Instead show compassion and understanding. Pray for us in those moments and let God’s healing hands do the rest.

Getting back to “normal”

Having the ability to cook without worrying about falling has helped me feel more confident. Using my LifeGlider has given me the use of my hands while having better balance. I have always enjoyed cooking for my family, but when I lost proprioception and balance it was almost impossible to stand and cook using a regular walker because I had to constantly had look a my legs/feet so that my brain could register where my legs were at all times otherwise any slight weight shift would send me falling. So blessed to have found a great device that allows me to stand up straight, walk more correctly all the while being safe.

Smile even when you think you can’ t

During the times when the news is negative, and people fail to treat each other with love and respect we can still live with joy and smile. Often my days are long, and my nights are short and restless because my pain is all over the place thanks to living with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation, but I still have joy and can smile because God has promised that I will be healed and  will succeed. He gives me each day to enjoy all the little moments even through the pain.

I pray of ten for total healing. A healing that will take the muscle spasms away, the leg electrical zaps, the pain of 6+ that I fight several times a day that include allodynia on most of my torso. and one that will give me the total use of my legs. Although that t day has not come yet I know it will. But God has performed many great things in my life. He has taken me out of a wheelchair and given me the ability to stand and walk with a walker and at times without one. He has allowed me to continue to use my hands which allow me to paint, draw, take photos, but most of to hug all those around me so that I may spread the joy and love.

No matter what life throws at us there is always something to be thankful for. Even when life feels like we are walking through the mud with extra weight on our backs we can still smile and have joy because the little things matter. The smiles we share, the hugs we give to our family, the elbow bumps we share with our friends and/or co-workers. If we focus on the good the and keep moving forward, we will soon find ourselves on the other side of all the bad. So, smile even when you don’t believe you can and start telling a better story. His promise is real.

His promise is unchanging

Your promise revives me; it comforts me in all my troubles.
Psalm 119:50 (NLT)

Some days are great and it easy to feel the energy and build on it. Those day are when we do things like get outside and do a little gardening or step up our workouts. Yet on the days when our body hurts and feels sluggish it becomes difficult to see the positives. But God’s promise to walk with us, to love us and to get us through brings life and hope back to us even when our pain is at an 7+ and our legs feel like they have weights on them as we walk through mud. Regardless of what is going on His promise remains unchanging.
Lately, I have had some tough days where all I can do is take my meds and rest. I have always been an active person who would much rather be outside doing something rather than to be a couch/bed potato. But I have had to learn that with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation that it is okay to take time to let my body rest and heal. So, on those day I read, draw or binge watch something on Netflix or Hulu. Often it is a combination of all those things. All the while remembering that God is with me and not let the negative thoughts creep in.
Once the negative thoughts start running through it makes it much harder to remain hopeful. Then the pain becomes overwhelming and causes many of us to fall into the “what if” stage. For example, what if there is a major earthquake, how am I going to get out, or what if this time I do not improve, and my symptoms just keep getting worse? Silly thoughts that the enemy loves to put into our head. Of course, we have a choice, we can keep going down this negative and dark path or we can STOP, say a prayer and ask God to help us control our thoughts and then begin thinking about all the good things that tomorrow will bring. Now, there are times when tomorrow repeats the same pain, but if we keep looking forward and stay hopeful most of the time the pain gets better and we are off to our next project or adventure.
If we stay hopeful, we will keep moving forward even if we take little steps. In time we will look back and realize how far we have really come. God’s promise gives us comfort in those times of difficulty and gives us hope to hold on and let Him carry us through. Stay strong and allow the good thoughts power you instead of letting the bad ones drain you. God will never break His promise. He will always comfort us and bring us through.

Thankful

Every breath and step I take, and every hurdle I conquer is because of Him. Facing each day with Him means nothing is too big to overcome because even when I think I am failing He is picking up and carrying me to the finish line.