The gorgeous sunset tonight. Enjoying the view while navigating the pain and spams. Have enjoyed the day watching my grandkids and nephew hang out and boogie board. So thankful for the special moments when my pain is down. Ugh!!!!Spams and burning. Man it sucks! The pain often interrupts my life in so many ways. Doing my best to enjoy as many moments as possible. God has painted the sky yet again!
There are so many old saying that pop in and out of my head almost on a daily basis. Things like “treat others the way you want to be treated” or “remember you never know what the other person may be going through”, or my favorite “Love one another as I have loved you.” As I navigate life with the added pain of being disabled, it is appalling that people have to be so nasty to each other instead of showing each other love and compassion. Don’t get me wrong there are still some very kind people out there, but lately I have had my fill of mean people.
Recently on one of my ventures out, I pulled into the handicapped parking that was available. Before I could get out of the car an elderly couple approached the car and told me that I needed to move. “You’re young and can walk, this is for people who need it. People like you who take their parent’s car and then park close because they are to lazy to walk are disgusting.” I proceeded to open my car door, get out and side step to the back door and retrieved my walker. The look on their faces was priceless. No apology they just stomped off. I don’t think they would have been to happy if I treated them the way they had just treated me.
This was not the first time I encounter this type of behavior. I have been honked at as I am crossing the street because I am going to slow. While in the grocery store people get annoyed when I am moving to slow as I walk behind the basket. As they have passed me I have gotten comments like, “It’s about time” or “If your going to be that slow use an electric cart.” That is not showing love or compassion for one another.
It really is upsetting and sad that people cannot treat each other with a little bit of compassion. When you see someone struggling to open a door into a business,why not stop and help them instead of continuing to play on your phone? or When you are at busy food establishment and you see someone with a walker or crutches why not make sure they have a place to sit while they wait? Things that are so simple seem to be difficult for people these days.
Where has all the compassion and love gone? I am not sure, but I know the only thing I can control is me and my behavior. So for me I choose to do my best to be compassionate and loving to others. Maybe by continuing to show positive actions others will be reminded and begin to join in. Loving your neighbor and being compassionate towards others may be just what this crazy world needs to get back on track.
At about 9:15 pm Wednesday my pain climbing to an 8. I was hanging with the family and my left side just below my shoulder blade began to spasm which then triggered the burning sensation. This was one of those times where the burning rolled down my entire left side leaving me feeling like my skin was being stretched and slitting open. I had taken my night dosages and they weren’t helping much. So with my husbands help I got into bed and placed the VR helmet on and played one of my favorite games Pet Lab.
As I began to play my spasms continued for about 10 mins, but they were not lasting as long and the severity was lessened. I had gone from an 8 to a six . I was immersed in a virtual world of making and train monsters. In Pet Lab you have orders to fulfill. So you take an egg and you follow the recipe on how to hatch the little creature. Once hatched you then take to you mixing room and you add features like change the color of the monsters fur color or had horns. Sometimes you have to increase the little creatures ability and take it to the training room. Once you complete all the pieces to head back to the shop and send it to the individual that ordered it. If you complete the order precisely you earn money which you can then use to buy items for future creature making. As you can tell Pet Lab requires focus.
The focus and immersion cause my brain to change course. The interruption of pain signals helped reduce my pain. At about 15 minutes into the game Wednesday night I noticed that my pain level was reduce from a 6 to 4. At a 4 I was able to take the helmet off, get comfortable in bed and drift off to sleep. I am thankful to have found another tool besides more medications to help reduce my pain. Who knows, maybe overtime the use of VR to interrupt the pain signals will trick my mind to stopping my pain and spasms completely allowing me to reduce the use of opioid medications.