It is easy to lose hope and find all the things I still cannot do. Waking up every day in pain doesn’t help. Almost two years ago I had a very dear friend and pastor lay hands on me. He told me that my legs were already being healed and to believe. So, although it is easy to fall into the negativity trap I have continued to believe and have hope.
A few days ago, my husband and I went on a walk while staying at the beach and using my LifeGlider. I have really missed being able to do things like jumping, dancing, and running. I decided to try running. Now this is more like a super-fast walk, but I can say I am on my way. I still have a way to go, but God has brought me from no feeling from the waist down and the inability to walk to regaining some feeling and standing to walking and now almost running.
Although it is difficult to sometimes see the progress and healing, there are times when God allows us to see and feel it. Never give up hope. Have faith because answers our prayers on His time. I refuse to give up and will do my best to keep moving forward telling a better story.
Working to run again. It will happen with pratice and believing in what God has done.
Defeating the bridge! Three weeks ago when staying here I could not walk over the bridge without my husband helping me. With practice, lots of prayer, walking and exercise I have built strength and now I can get over the bridge on my own using my LifeGlider.
Every day can bring something different. Sometimes days start with low pain only to have it increase throughout the day. Living with chronic pain is draining not only for the body but for our mind.
Because you never know when pain is going to go from 3 to 7+ you worry about where you are going or who is going to be around. Are you going to be in public? Are you close to home? Is the a place where you can attempt to get some relief?
When living with chronic pain there are so many things to consider. Yes, medications do help some, but they never relieve the pain fully leaving us to find ways to cope.
Yoga and other forms of exercise can be beneficial. Learning to breathe and stretch can help during spasms allowing some relief. Everyone is different and we must all find what works for us.
Our struggle and pain is real even if we don’t look ill. Most people living with chronic pain do there best not to show it and to stay positive. But when we have high pain days and can not do much don’t call us lazy or think we are faking it . Instead show compassion and understanding. Pray for us in those moments and let God’s healing hands do the rest.
During the times when the news is negative, and people fail to treat each other with love and respect we can still live with joy and smile. Often my days are long, and my nights are short and restless because my pain is all over the place thanks to living with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation, but I still have joy and can smile because God has promised that I will be healed and will succeed. He gives me each day to enjoy all the little moments even through the pain.
I pray of ten for total healing. A healing that will take the muscle spasms away, the leg electrical zaps, the pain of 6+ that I fight several times a day that include allodynia on most of my torso. and one that will give me the total use of my legs. Although that t day has not come yet I know it will. But God has performed many great things in my life. He has taken me out of a wheelchair and given me the ability to stand and walk with a walker and at times without one. He has allowed me to continue to use my hands which allow me to paint, draw, take photos, but most of to hug all those around me so that I may spread the joy and love.
No matter what life throws at us there is always something to be thankful for. Even when life feels like we are walking through the mud with extra weight on our backs we can still smile and have joy because the little things matter. The smiles we share, the hugs we give to our family, the elbow bumps we share with our friends and/or co-workers. If we focus on the good the and keep moving forward, we will soon find ourselves on the other side of all the bad. So, smile even when you don’t believe you can and start telling a better story. His promise is real.
Love each other with genuine affection and take delight in honoring each other. Romans 12:10 (NLT)
Love and honor each other. So simple, yet it often appears that people cannot understand nor follow this. All you have to do is open up the newspaper or turn on the news to see how people treat each one another. During these trying times it would benefit us to take the time to respect and show compassion to one another. So often people are so caught up in their own point of view that they cannot and do not take the time to consider the other side.
Recently, I personally have experienced nasty comments and bad behavior instead of love and understanding because I defended the “continue to wear face masks” view. Instead of taking the time to understand why I supported the “ continue to wear face masks” point of view, people told me: “butt out”, “ there’s no real risks because the media is lying”, “your stupid for listening to hype,” “continue to follow the herd” and many other negative comments. Not once was I asked why I believed that wearing face masks was important instead it was negative comment after negative comment. Even when it was explained the response was, “then stay home” and other unpleasant words. Why must I be forced to stay home and not enjoy the occasional outing with my family?
It would benefit all of us to love and honor each other regardless of our opinions. There is no reason to be hateful and disrespectful to one another. We all have our own agenda, but there is no reason we cannot take the time to understand the why and maybe learn something new. Taking the time to listen and respond with understanding even if our opinions differ can change the mood. After all, we were all given free will so why not choose to love and honor each other regardless of our opinions? Showing others affection and honoring them does not take a lot of effort, but it can change the way we interact and may even turn a negative situation into a mutually beneficial one.