” May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
God gave us a gift of another day when He woke us up this morning. Rejoice and share it with those around you. Our time is not promised and spending the time angry or holding a grudge is not fruitful, but sharing a smile, helping someone, or just giving others the gift of our time is. So, enjoy your day because you only get to live it once!
It is easy to lose hope and find all the things I still cannot do. Waking up every day in pain doesn’t help. Almost two years ago I had a very dear friend and pastor lay hands on me. He told me that my legs were already being healed and to believe. So, although it is easy to fall into the negativity trap I have continued to believe and have hope.
A few days ago, my husband and I went on a walk while staying at the beach and using my LifeGlider. I have really missed being able to do things like jumping, dancing, and running. I decided to try running. Now this is more like a super-fast walk, but I can say I am on my way. I still have a way to go, but God has brought me from no feeling from the waist down and the inability to walk to regaining some feeling and standing to walking and now almost running.
Although it is difficult to sometimes see the progress and healing, there are times when God allows us to see and feel it. Never give up hope. Have faith because answers our prayers on His time. I refuse to give up and will do my best to keep moving forward telling a better story.
Working to run again. It will happen with pratice and believing in what God has done.
Every day can bring something different. Sometimes days start with low pain only to have it increase throughout the day. Living with chronic pain is draining not only for the body but for our mind.
Because you never know when pain is going to go from 3 to 7+ you worry about where you are going or who is going to be around. Are you going to be in public? Are you close to home? Is the a place where you can attempt to get some relief?
When living with chronic pain there are so many things to consider. Yes, medications do help some, but they never relieve the pain fully leaving us to find ways to cope.
Yoga and other forms of exercise can be beneficial. Learning to breathe and stretch can help during spasms allowing some relief. Everyone is different and we must all find what works for us.
Our struggle and pain is real even if we don’t look ill. Most people living with chronic pain do there best not to show it and to stay positive. But when we have high pain days and can not do much don’t call us lazy or think we are faking it . Instead show compassion and understanding. Pray for us in those moments and let God’s healing hands do the rest.
Having the ability to cook without worrying about falling has helped me feel more confident. Using my LifeGlider has given me the use of my hands while having better balance. I have always enjoyed cooking for my family, but when I lost proprioception and balance it was almost impossible to stand and cook using a regular walker because I had to constantly had look a my legs/feet so that my brain could register where my legs were at all times otherwise any slight weight shift would send me falling. So blessed to have found a great device that allows me to stand up straight, walk more correctly all the while being safe.
During the times when the news is negative, and people fail to treat each other with love and respect we can still live with joy and smile. Often my days are long, and my nights are short and restless because my pain is all over the place thanks to living with an Incomplete Spinal Cord Injury and Chiari Malformation, but I still have joy and can smile because God has promised that I will be healed and will succeed. He gives me each day to enjoy all the little moments even through the pain.
I pray of ten for total healing. A healing that will take the muscle spasms away, the leg electrical zaps, the pain of 6+ that I fight several times a day that include allodynia on most of my torso. and one that will give me the total use of my legs. Although that t day has not come yet I know it will. But God has performed many great things in my life. He has taken me out of a wheelchair and given me the ability to stand and walk with a walker and at times without one. He has allowed me to continue to use my hands which allow me to paint, draw, take photos, but most of to hug all those around me so that I may spread the joy and love.
No matter what life throws at us there is always something to be thankful for. Even when life feels like we are walking through the mud with extra weight on our backs we can still smile and have joy because the little things matter. The smiles we share, the hugs we give to our family, the elbow bumps we share with our friends and/or co-workers. If we focus on the good the and keep moving forward, we will soon find ourselves on the other side of all the bad. So, smile even when you don’t believe you can and start telling a better story. His promise is real.